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Experiencing God
Posted by Barbara Smith (BWSmith)
This message was originally posted on
Christian Homeschool Fellowship on the Web

Oh Have you ever touched a nerve!

I never linked "pride" as a descriptive adjective to moi -- oh no, inferiority complex QUEEN that I was -- Well what is an inferiority complex -- but a SUPERIORITY complex inside out?

Now I hope I didn't lose you on this one but after I grew up a smidgen in the Christian faith, God showed me that PRIDE is so much more than pleasure in possessions or accomplishments, or in gifts and attributes - it is the bottom lie reason I fought coming into a right relationship: because "I" would have to yield because "I" could no longer use as excuses for poor conduct. my "deficits."

Does this make sense?

I am learning over and over again that PRIDE impacts my relationship with GOD because it sneaks up and trips me up all the time. My pride is the leaky valve in my vessel of JOY.

Today in church when we prayed through the Lord's prayer for give us our debts I thought: Sitting in and among a bunch of DEBTORS and my thoughts wander to focus on another person who annoys me. There I am -- *in CHURCH*-- thinking "I" am different! Good GRIEF! Pride tripped me again pride of position, circumstances whatever.

My pride wants me to sidestep any guilt by association yet I until I see like Paul I am chief among sinners; that if none of us can pay what "owe" in exchange for the remission of our sins -- that includes me. Yet my pride kicks in and distracts me from focusing on *my* transgressions in the middle of the worship service.

It is false or inverted pride that says, Oh God surely *my* sins weren't so bad that they caused YOUR Son's agony! Because they are.

For years I have read Luke 18:10-13 and smugly assumed I knew the point. But in recent times, I see the Pharisee I can become in the wink of an eye knowing "I am not like other people: swindlers, unjust, adulterers, or even like this tax-gatherer." I can lapse into comfortable assurance of my good deeds which in God's eyes are as filthy rags (translated from words meaning menstrual rags) See why you touched a nerve?

And I am looking forward to seeing my rags make a lovely blaze (1 Corinthians 3:11-15)
Love in Christ,

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